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| Sooooo yeah. It's almost been two years, xanga.
Hi.
I'm no longer with the person mentioned below. We had technical difficulties of the infidelitous kind. I met Chris in January 2009. We were engaged August 2009, the day before we moved out to California (August 15). I'm now living in North Hollywood, CA. Waiting for school to start at Musicians Institute where I'll be studying audio engineering. Chris is in a band (www.hiediaskew.com) and he's currently working as a PA. I'm trying to find work here, but it's fucking tough.
Anyway, hi xanga. I missed you.
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| so another year has come and gone, and i barely blogged here this past 2007.
so sad.
i remember when xanga was pretty much my connection with anyone i knew that wasn't in the same town as me.
now it's all myspace/facebook/friendster/vibe etc etc etc...
and i hate to admit it but i hardly read the long list of subscriptions i have anymore save for Rach's because they are so damn interesting most of the time.
anyway, still with J. still in the "new" house. still have 3 kitties. they don't hate each other as much anymore, but they still like to get into trouble.
my boobs are now smaller thanks to modern surgical technology. i kissed those DD's goodbye!
things are good.
which is scary. but good.
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| so yeah, i'm still young (for a little while longer).
I don't claim to know everything, in fact there are still miles for me to walk along the educational highway...
but there are things that you learn in a life filled with experiences, both hidden and obvious...
you can either gather them up and try to see the good in all of it...
or you can hide and run away and expect the worst of everything.
So here's a few nuggets of, albeit obvious, wisdom that I think some people just need to be reminded of.
-Lies
will always, ALWAYS come back to kick you in the ass. This goes for
half-truths as well. If you're going to lie, at least accept the
repercussions of said deception.
-It's never good to owe anyone
anything, but if you do owe someone something, pay them back. In
full. As promised. If you never intend to pay anyone back, at least
have the decency to say so in the beginning. THEN DON'T TAKE THEIR
MONEY.
-Sex is fun. But it's also not fun when you fuck the
wrong people. Whether you believe it or not, you're now bonded with a
human being that you may or may not ever want to see again. Just
remember that the next time you hop into bed with someone new.
-Hurting
yourself will NEVER EVER solve any problems or erase the pain. That
relief that you feel will be but a passing moment and the scars will
only remind you of your mistakes that took you there. Instead of
hurting yourself, why don't you help someone else.
-Everything is good in moderation. Everything. Moderation. Even good things can turn bad when used in excess.
-You
are not the only person that matters on the entire planet. Other
people do exist and whether you realize it or not, your actions affect
several of those who are involved both directly and indirectly in your
life.
-There is no prince charming. There is no damsel in
distress. There is just you and people who could be compatible with
you to make both your lives better.
-Early to bed, early to rise
may not make you healthy, wealthy or wise immediately, but it helps in
the long run. Even if you HATE mornings like me, and despise getting
up while it's still pre-noon, you feel alot more accomplished by the
end of the day... and you may just actually be tired enough to sleep
again!
-A degree isn't everything, but you can always benefit
from learning something new every day whether or not it's laid out in a
synopsis or course.
-If you wish for your life to be better,
only you and you alone can make it better. It doesn't take money or
power or love, all it takes is you making your life better. A concrete
solid decision to move forward and not backward.
-Everybody
falls. Not everyone has someone else to pick them back up, so every
once in a while you might have to pick your own ass off the floor.
-Cleanliness isn't godliness... but it sure as hell is nice.
-Ignoring your problems will not make them go away. In fact, usually it makes them bigger and worse.
-Friends aren't always going to be nice to each other, but you know what? Real friends aren't usually going for "nice" they're going for "real".
more to be added later...
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| boring boring, my xanga's so boring...
whoa! hey! long time no see xanga friends... of course I'm sure most of you know my other bitching sites... myspace, facebook, deviant art... yeah. all you popular people who whore the internet like me in search of MORE INPUT.
a little bit has happened since I last entried, but I have moved into a 3 bedroom house in the Highland district of Shreveport. It's nice being close to everything again. I actually have digital cable and high speed internet again. It's niiiiiice. The curtains are new and so is a few items of furniture so the house is looking nicely. Paint on the walls should be coming soon. I always promise pictures of stuff and never post any so I'll just skip the promise of photo documentation and let you hope for some in the future. Maybe.
I've adopted 2 cats from a friend who needed a break from the fast life and headed out west. They are sweet kitties but unfortunately the younger female cat does NOT get along with my cat, Stella. I think it's because they are constantly angry over the fact that they look almost exactly alike. It's like two bimbos showing up to a party in the same dress that they can't change out of. Cat fight. Knocked over a few of my lamps, turned the TV on during the middle of the night and unplugged my stereo receiver. Damn cats. I like having 1. Three (technically 4 counting Lindsey's cat, Jackie) cats are just too many. I don't see how "cat ladies" do it except that they suffer along with no nice things. I like nice things too much. I like my furniture and my photos and my electronics. One cat I can deal with. One cat I can look after. Four... too many.
I'm currently working at the US Fencing Summer Nationals. I'm exhausted having been here since the 27th of June. We leave on Monday hopefully. I'm ready to be back in the house moving the rest of my stuff in (including the washer and dryer!) and planning out my itinerary for Denver. If everything goes well, I'll be visiting a few friends who recently moved up there.
I'm currently seeing someone. His name is J. He's a good boy. He's been pretty good to me. He's getting used to my "extreme"ness. I guess I have quite the outspoken and passionate nature, moreso than I already thought. But even still, he's a good man and a great boyfriend.
That's pretty much it. I can't wait to get home again.
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| i have had it.
here is my laid out list for allowances i can have:
only ONE alcoholic drink per night I go out. if I drink more than
one in a night, that counts for the next night I go out.
only TWO fast food meals per month (and for every fast food meal, another half hour of exercise should be added on to that day)
only ONE PACK of cigarettes per month (and if a half pack rolls over to next month DO NOT BUY ANOTHER PACK)
must eat some sort of vegetable and fruit EVERY DAY.
NO MORE BREAD! ....okay okay so I can't really give this up, but I am cutting down dammit!
i must exercise or do something aerobically stimulating for at least thirty minutes AT LEAST 3 times or more a week.
only 1 hour of online time at home per day. (I have to be online at
work so why do I need to spend as much time online at home??)
unpack at least ONE box a day until all boxes are empty.
I am TIRED of not fitting into perfectly good jeans that I fit into
only three years ago. There is no reason why a 25 year old, single,
childless female should be 35 pounds overweight. I have NO excuse for
sitting around doing nothing and then complaining about my clothes not
fitting. I should not have to cry everytime I buy clothes and then a
week later they don't fit. I should be happy with myself and I'm going
to be happy with myself. I'm just going to have to WORK FOR IT. Gee!
What a concept? Working to be happy? What a strange, foreign thought!
I'm a friggin genius!
The fat ass buck stops here.
I'm saying goodbye size 15, and hopefully in a few months, Hello my old size 9/10 friends!!!
oh and by the way... this is not some cry for people to say "ohhhh
youre so pretty just the way you are..." HELL! Kirstie Alley can pull
of pretty at any size and I'm pretty damn sure I can too. It's a
matter of me kicking myself in my own ass and DOING what I keep TALKING
about. It's about growing up. Really growing up and taking control of
a life I've let just slip out of my hands. For the longest time I was
offended by this guy who would always say that I was a cute girl but
had the potential to be hot if I would only take care of myself... You
know what? Sure it wasn't the best way to hand a compliment to a girl,
but he is FUCKING RIGHT. It's a sad sad state that my poor body is in
right now and it's all because I've neglected to take care of it. I
wouldn't treat my own child like I treat myself... so there. That
should clarify any misunderstandings that some might have with reading
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